Clarke Carlisle, tsohon ɗan wasan Premier League da ya zama mai fafutukar kiwon lafiyar hankali, ya yi magana a bayyane game da yadda mummunar rauni a gwiwarsa yana da shekara 21 ya kai shi ga farkon ƙoƙarinsa na kashe kansa — wani lokaci da ya tsara sauran rayuwarsa a cikin filin wasa da wajen filin.
A hirarsa da FourFourTwo, Carlisle ya tuna da abin da ya faru wanda ya fara duk abin. Yana wasa wa QPR a shekara ta 2001, ya shiga wani abin da ya bayyana kamar karo na yau da kullun da Rufus Brevett, ya samu jerin raunuka masu muni a gwiwar ƙafarsa ta dama: yadda ACL ta karye, juyawar kan fibula, motsin jijiya daga wurinta, da kuma yage ƙaƙƙarfan tsoka na hamstring.
"Na kasance wajen wasa na tsawon watanni 22 kuma abu ne mai ban tsoro sosai," ya ce. "Hakan ne farkon matsalolin lafiyar hankali. Ƙwallon ƙafa tana da muhimmanci sosai a gare ni. Ta fitar da ni daga unguwar matalauta kuma tana cika mafarkai na."
Kalaman likita na tiyata da sakamakon su mai muni
Sa'ad da hukuncin likita ya zo, ya tura Carlisle zuwa kan gaba. "Mai tiyata ya ce min ba zan sake buga ƙwallon ƙafa ba. Hakan ne karon farko da na yi ƙoƙarin kashe kaina," ya ce. "Bayan aikin tiyata ne, kuma ina sha giya har na zame a wani ɗaki a Acton."
Ya sha yawan magani fiye da kima aka same shi a lokaci da ya dace domin ma'aikatan lafiya su wanke ɓawon sa. Ya tsira — amma martanin mutanen da ke kewaye da shi ya nuna rashin fahimtar zamanin game da lafiyar hankali. "A shekara ta 2001, ba a ganin hakan a matsayin roƙon taimako," Carlisle ya tuna. "Abin ya fi kama da, 'Ai, ka tsere daga mutuwa Clarke, mugun yaro, kar ka sake yin hakan!' Duk mun yi kamar babu abin da ya faru."
Shekaru biyu na ƙwazo — da ƙarin kaka 13
Abin da ya biyo baya shi ne sake horar da kansa na tsawon shekaru biyu wanda Carlisle ya jefa kansa a ciki gaba ɗaya. Ƙoƙarin ya biya kamar yadda kaɗan ne zai iya tsammani. "A cikin filin horarwa da wajenshi, na ba da duk abin da nake da shi na tsawon shekaru biyu don dawo da lafiyar jikin na," ya ce. "Ba wai haka kaɗai ba, sai na ci gaba da buga ƙwallon ƙafa na ƙarin kaka 13."
Carlisle ya amince da rikitarwar wannan lokacin waraka. "Abin da kana bukatar fahimta shi ne cewa ban san ina fuskantar mummunan yanayin lafiyar hankali ba a lokacin da nake tafiya ta duk waɗannan raunukan — don haka babu fahimta cewa ina cin nasara a wani abu," ya bayyana.
A ƙarshe ya kai Premier League tare da Watford, yana taimakon su samun tashi, kafin ya cigaba da wakiltar Burnley a mafi ɗaukaka ɗan wasan Ingila. Bayyanarsa ta farko a babban ɗaukakar wasan ya kasance a kan Portsmouth a Vicarage Road — amma liyafar ta kasance abin farin ciki da kuma baƙin ciki a lokaci ɗaya. "A lokacin da na fara bayyana a Premier League a kan Portsmouth a Vicarage Road, a rana mai zafi ƙwarai, na yi wasa mai ƙarfi sosai — amma an riga an sauke mu ƙasa a wancan lokaci," ya ce.
Labarin Carlisle tunatar da mu ne cewa yaƙin tunani da 'yan wasa ke yi na iya yin tasiri kaɗai kamar yadda duk wani lokaci a filin wasan — kuma tattaunawar game da waɗannan yaƙe-yaƙen na ci gaba da kama gaskiyar da yawancin 'yan wasa suka rayu da ita a cikin shiru na tsawon lokaci.
